GOODBYE BEFORE LEAVING...

I'm not updating this because I want to, but mostly because I have to, I need to...

Maybe it's stupid, but the thought, that this blog post will be out there for you (although you might have no idea that it's for you) and you'll have access to it and you may read it, and in an alternate world or reality you might realize that it refers to you... This thought, it's kind of soothing!

You were a huge inspiration, you were a big mistake too... Well I must not call you a mistake, because mistakes are done by us and you just happened I did nothing (at least not intentionally) and I had no power over this situation... Life has always been twisted for me (I guess it's so for everyone in there own world) but I will always regret getting acquainted with you... I know we knew each other for a long time, but 'knowing' someone is a tricky concept... so I was saying I'll regret getting to know you more than that I should have... But I would thank God for that...  Yeah this whole experience with you this whole 'episode' (by the way that's an official term now on ) it was not only enriching it was worth keeping in my memories... Although it would have been perfect if this episode would have never happened.
I will thank God for bringing this time in my life... I never knew you this way and it opened many locked unheeded doors in my mind too... I used to think life is a game of solitaire, we have to stick to same color people, find the proper sequence the proper color and arrange ourselves that way but when I met you I realized we are jigsaw puzzles... We should find the complimentary parts to fit and complete ourselves... Thanks for this lesson...

So it's a mixed farewell... Yeah it is... Indeed a farewell. Where I'm sad to say goodbye and happy to be free from all those regrets. I've been planning this for a very long time... It's like, sometimes in stories when the best part is been dealt with, the author should be wise enough to wrap the story up... This is that point... Actually we have been, way beyond that point. It should've been wrapped up way back... But... I told you, I haven't been myself lately... Anyway... Now I've gained the courage and sensibility...

This post is not supposed to be very long it's a let-it-all-out kind of post, so that I could breath free after saying my au-revoir

In the end I want to thank you for everything and sorry if I was intolerable (I tend to be so, at times).

We will meet again, although 'sadly' and at the same time 'hopefully' not like 'this'

This post is so full of oxymoron 