Being alone makes you go crazy... I mean being single... most of my school friends are either married or they are going to and most of my batch mates (college friends) are engaged, committed (not for eternity I know but still :-( ) I belong to the genre of people who are single but not ready to mingle...
Or does such genre exist in reality ??
What is love ?? what exactly is it? I don't say I never passed the phase of day-dreaming and fantasy-castle-building and all... it did happen to me but I outlived that period of my life being single and now I think I am incapable of loving ever... when I look at newlywed couples, I see them a lot these days by the way, all I imagine is, 'is this gooey-eyes gesture and this pink blush comes to you naturally when you anticipate the upcoming wedding or you really have to be in love to be like this...'
I look at future like everyone does... but I just can't picture perfectly, the married or engaged version of myself... I see myself visiting every nooks and cranny of this world but I don't see that prince charming by my side. I do all the interesting stuff and all the jobs I've put in my bucket list but I am not sure that I share the same with some other guy in this world and I know I can not go on like this forever or at least my parents won't let me... when I realise that everything I had dreamt of and everything that I wanna be is not possible, I feel sad and that makes me go crazy...
I literally feel something going astray in my brain these days... as if I am high on something and I do weird stuff at weird times... all I need to focus right now is my studies and pg preparation (post graduation) but all that I can think of is this stupid stuff...
Why getting married is such a big thing in our society ?? why our parent's ultimate goal does not end up at making good human beings out of us but it goes beyond it and reaches to the level of making sure that we procreate and make few good human beings ourselves... Is it wrong to imagine a life without a soul mate?? I am not saying that I don't respect the holy matrimony and that I would never and ever marry... all I am saying is I am not sure of it... and I don't see myself there yet...
Or does such genre exist in reality ??
What is love ?? what exactly is it? I don't say I never passed the phase of day-dreaming and fantasy-castle-building and all... it did happen to me but I outlived that period of my life being single and now I think I am incapable of loving ever... when I look at newlywed couples, I see them a lot these days by the way, all I imagine is, 'is this gooey-eyes gesture and this pink blush comes to you naturally when you anticipate the upcoming wedding or you really have to be in love to be like this...'
I look at future like everyone does... but I just can't picture perfectly, the married or engaged version of myself... I see myself visiting every nooks and cranny of this world but I don't see that prince charming by my side. I do all the interesting stuff and all the jobs I've put in my bucket list but I am not sure that I share the same with some other guy in this world and I know I can not go on like this forever or at least my parents won't let me... when I realise that everything I had dreamt of and everything that I wanna be is not possible, I feel sad and that makes me go crazy...
I literally feel something going astray in my brain these days... as if I am high on something and I do weird stuff at weird times... all I need to focus right now is my studies and pg preparation (post graduation) but all that I can think of is this stupid stuff...
Why getting married is such a big thing in our society ?? why our parent's ultimate goal does not end up at making good human beings out of us but it goes beyond it and reaches to the level of making sure that we procreate and make few good human beings ourselves... Is it wrong to imagine a life without a soul mate?? I am not saying that I don't respect the holy matrimony and that I would never and ever marry... all I am saying is I am not sure of it... and I don't see myself there yet...
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